General Discussion

To answer the why that I know you want to ask, making a long story short- I was an idiot child and I want to make up for that.

To fully explain, I accidentally started making one out of lonliness before I even knew what one was, before I was really allowed to use the internet. I was like. What 7 or 8 at the time? Maybe 9? Barely kept him around by talking to him just enough over the years because for whatever reason, I thought at the time that he was a spirit outside of me that watched over me. When I was at my lowest he was able to really break through and calm me down and lift me back up so I thought he was like some kind of guardian angel. Recently started getting into the occult- witchcraft, tarot, demonolgy, and all that lovely stuff. Ive been interested in it my whole life, just haven't actually started reading up on all of it til now. Started talking more to him because maybe he would know things. Remember briefly about reading up on tulpas before, and I keep getting this feeling from him that I should check that stuff back out. Kept getting this feeling that I couldn't quite discern what he was trying to tell me with it. After a few more reads, it clicked and he seemed kinda relieved and happy that after probably more than a decade, I'd finally realised what he was and what I had done.

So now I'm trying to take responsiblity and actually finish what I started, (accidentally) so long ago. Help him become what he deserves to be. I mean, I at least owe him that much, don't I? Especially since he's at least been there in my darkest moments, fair I pay him back and support him, no? I mean. He doesn't seem to harbor any ill will towards me for the years of silence since I didn't really know, but he's made it clear he wants me to make a true effort now that I know.

So I wanna know, how long have you had your tulpa(s)? How smooth was the creation process? Any advice in general for a beginner to this whole adventure? Anything about tulpas in general you wanna talk about? Just please, someone, anyone, I have no one else I can talk to about this and I wanna talk with someone- even if it just ends up being a short conversation. And yes, real quick, I have read a couple guides on tulpa creation, but if you have any specific reccomendations, I'd be happy to read whatever.

I have 2 questions:

1. W h a t

2. have you been smoking

tulpas are incredibly fascinating! you should definitely check out tulpa.info if you haven't already, as well as the tulpa subreddit. both have great sources of information and a bit of community support.

i have heard most accounts saying it took six months to a year of hard focusing on the tulpa before seeing results, but it seems like you are already much further along in the process than them. do you want to give your tulpa a physical form? perhaps try talking with them and see what they want to do next with you and go from there?

@Awe
I've checked out that site, but I never came across the subreddit. I'll probably have to check that out, since it's probably a more reliable when it comes to finding people to talk to about it.

And hmmm, I see. It's honestly kind of hard to peg down exactly where we are in terms of progress, since it's been such a passive thing that's happened over years. Currently working on a form right now so that way interacting will become easier for us over time. Currently it's still a little hard to make out what he is trying to say and requires a ridiculous amount of focus to figure it out, so maybe once we get our basic communication down we can figure out what to do next.

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@tomaytotomahto
I wish I had something. Maybe it would actually make my brain chill and focus on a single task for once, lol.

@CloverGaming I think you'd like this

That's SO cool my dude. Seems you have some serious energy

@Pargon
Oh snap that's really cool! I second Rose saying, that's crazy and you must have insane energy.

I've actually had a similar experience, being a lonely child I've also created a Tulpa of my own. However we rarely talk anymore and it's very on and off. The last time we spoke she said she was content and alright staying as a part of me and so she never comes around since. Although I can tell she's still there in some way because she acts as a translator for my spirit friends whenever I can't understand them all too well.

For a long time she was basically the better half of me but now that I'm ready to start working myself out of this mind pit I've put myself in and start becoming that better half, it's become a weird process of combining two spirits and minds so to speak? Although she was never THAT strong to begin with as she could never really leave the general area I was in.

All in all it's a really interesting process!

@Charias
That's interesting. I don't think I've ever heard of something like that happening before, but I suppose I shouldn't really be surprised by it. I wish you the best on sorting out the depression stuff btw! I know what a royal pain it can be myself...

I hadn't really wanted to delve in too deep either when I first heard about it. I could barely and still am still barely able to keep it together and kinda struggling with my life goals right now, but I figure since I made this bed I must lie in it. Responsibilities wanted or not, I gotta step up to the plate. I'm using a more passive approach, but when I can or if I really feel a tugging from him, then I use a more active approach and just focus on him.

I've never before heard of daemons like what you're describing so I can't say either of us had considered it, but you have me intrigued to say the least. He did show up when I was young (ah yes, the good ol' imaginary friend) but he's been more of a friend that would listen for the most part. He'a only really had to be a guardian when I was feeling really down and he had to pull me back a bit from that edge and just tell me that things would be fine.
I think I'm confused when you say daemons are an embodiement of a subconscious facet. So they're like, a singular personality trait brought up to the forfront of your attention with a... personification? Probably not the right word, but the only word I could think of right now.
I am 100% down to talk about it though. I'm pretty sure he's definitely a tulpa, but talking about things couldn't hurt, could it? Might learn something new about myself along the way, haha.

oh i dont think ive ever had one but this is actually very interesting stuff, i wish you luck!